Monday, July 28, 2014

Appreciate the beauty that is life.

I started this blog at the young age of 15. Now that I am 18, I realise that there were so many things that never crossed my mind back then. Of course, I don't think they were meant to cross my mind, for I was far too young to be thinking about life nor it's importance. I am 18 now, and yes, I know that I am making myself sound like I am 40. However, 18 is that delicate age when you are on the precipice of discovering life's secrets. It's the age when all your tastes become cemented. The age when you realise why you are here and what it all means. 

I have a strong relationship with my family members. I have a great personal life and educational life. I am stable, I am serious, and I am ready to take on the world.

The beauty of feeling like this is that you begin to appreciate life.

When I was younger, I considered as well as attempted to take my own life. It was so meaningless back then. I would have disappeared from this beautiful world and it didn't seem like such a big deal to me. I was mistaken. I am not saying this merely because I am in a good place in my life. I am saying this because being in a good place in my life has caused me to realise what life really has to offer. I am scared that had I succeeded in taking my own life, I would have missed out on all the experiences life has offered me, both good and bad. 

I have my life sorted out. I am studying for my career now, as opposed to taking a slew of subjects in high school and not really knowing what to do with them. College has shown me a whole new dimension of academics, and I can proudly say that I enjoy attending classes now, for I know that this is where I'm supposed to be, this is knowledge I need and want to have.

I strongly hope all my readers appreciate their families. I have slowly begun to realise the true importance and beauty of having your family's support and love. I was and am terribly afraid of the world rejecting my sexuality. However, having come out of the closet to my family, having experienced a wondrous acceptance, I know that I will always have their unconditional support; while this does not take away my fear, it definitely eases it. 

Appreciate what you got, and if you don't have anything to appreciate, then appreciate when you will get.  


  1. ah seeing a post from you brightened up my day a little. It's so good to hear you doing so well and I wish you all the best with your college adventures :)